I Understand Your Pain
|Divorce isn’t easy. Neither are the steps leading up to it, or the process of trying to save your marriage so you don’t have to go through a breakup. I understand your fear – the fear of losing everything, of being alone, and even the fear of your life spinning out of control. I also understand your difficult emotions – like anger, frustration, and resentment!
I was married for 23 years and had two children when my entire life was ripped out from under me. I had a beautiful home and a life filled with friends and family.
At the time my marriage ended, I didn’t think I would ever be happy again, but I am!
My Personal Journey
Through childhood abuse and neglect, I learned to believe that I wasn’t important and that what I wanted didn’t matter. Over time, all the early experiences of my life led me to believe that I wasn’t worthy of love or the quality relationships I so badly wanted. I grew into adulthood believing that my value was in caring for the well-being of others. The problem? I forgot to care for myself and my own needs and desires. Sound familiar?
When I got married and started my own family, I put a white-picket fence in my back yard as a symbol of the idealistic family I dreamed about. From the very onset of my relationship with my husband, I gave pieces of myself away. I spent years not understanding why I was crying so much, but years later I realized I was living a delusional fantasy that someday things would get better, someday my marriage would fulfill me, someday I would be happy. Someday never happened; instead, my feelings turned to anger and resentment and each day became harder to cope with a marriage that lacked intimacy and true partnership.
The breaking point came when I could no longer deny how unhappy I was in my marriage. I had tried everything – I even tried to change my husband to get him to realize what was missing and that our relationship was worth saving. The day I packed my bags was the day I left a trail of destruction – hurting the very people I loved the most and that brought me the most joy – my children.
Divorce as a Catalyst!
I Stand With You & For You
Living A Life I Love
|When I am not doing the work I love and cherish, you will find me living life to the fullest. I enjoy participating in all the activities that bring me joy. Some of these pastimes include hiking, canoeing, and fishing. I am reconnecting with my family and feel immensely equipped to meet the struggles and successes of being a mother. I cherish my friends and continue to deepen my connections. My spiritual practice is becoming an integral a part of who I am and spending time each day in meditation helps me connect to what is most important to me.
I love going to live concerts to see powerful women artists like Storm Large and Zapparella. On my best days, you will find me at the beach with my butt in the sand “resting” my body to the endless lapping of water at my feet. Other times you might find me knitting or crocheting, or even at a yard sale looking for treasures. I love hosting intimate dinner parties and gathering people together in community.
My newest passion is traveling the world. I have been fortunate to visit Russia, Poland, Ukraine, and Budapest. I also love traveling with Wild Planet Adventures for wildlife adventures! I have been to Thailand where, in addition to the incredible wildlife viewing and conscious raising activities like visiting a tiger rescue sanctuary, we took it upon ourselves to clean multiple bags of trash off an uninhabited beach. I traveled with Wild Planet to Africa on a 21-day safari and tracked leopard by foot, watched the giraffes mate, and fell asleep to the incessant laughing of thousands of hippos – it’s contagious. My most recent trip was to Borneo where I wore leech socks everyday and found my new favorite primate – the proboscis monkey. Wow! Just a few short years ago, I never thought all this was possible, but my life is becoming more ideal every day!